Fear

My boss' secretary is having a hysterectomy today. She's gonna be off work for about 7 weeks or so. Each time something happens to someone else, it reminds me about my own problems. I'm due to have a full check up.

And it looks like I have reason to have one.

I'm not going to go into details on here, but shit I had to get it out somewhere, because I don't have anyone to call. Besides, I can't have a decent conversation at work anyway.

My body's been aching for a week, I've been tired and emotional. And just now, something else added to my concerns. I'm sitting here at my desk trying really hard not to panic and fighting the urge to cry. It could be nothing. I have a feeling that it's not.

I'm scared.