The more I know about boys...
....the less sense they make.
Who knew when boys said they're not interested that they could change their mind overnight. Daaaaamn! I thought just women did that. Newly dubbed 'car guy' not only went out of his way to find my work email address, but he's already asking when we can catch up again. (I have to say here, he has a friend who works for my company, so it was pretty easy to figure out my email....even if I did find it a little...uncomfortable.) Aaaanyway, working on sorting that out as we speak...um, type.
The anti-me threw me for a loop last night. Said he gets excited when he sees me and would see me more if we lived closer. Apparently, I spoil him. I'm not sure what that means. Whatever it does, it's nice to have someone say they look forward to seeing you so much.
He also asked if I had a single friend. Didn't know where that line of questioning was going, for a moment! He said it was so I could go out with him and his brother and not feel like the third wheel. Ok, so the only time I've socialised with both of them is the first night I met them. I haven't even seen his brother since then. They usually go out alone. Him suggesting we go out as a group has made me confused. Yet again. Just when I think I have got things straight in my head, he says something else that makes me go, "Huh?" and start processing all over again.
There are things that I can't explain. Whether we're just watching a movie, or out doing grocery shopping (somehow, that's become a weird, fun activity - go figure), we have lots of fun. I don't think anyone else has made me laugh so much, so often, recently. He doesn't take life seriously. I take it too seriously. I'm learning to chill out. For that, I'm grateful.
This past weekend has proven to me what I already knew. I want to be able to do my own thing. I don't want restrictions. I don't want complications. I don't want expectations. I don't trust enough.
Having said that, if I had ever considered the anti-me as relationship potential, I would trust him. He's politically incorrect. He does lots of things I don't agree with. But he's honest. And ya don't find that in too many people these days. There've been times I've questioned things he's said. Somehow it always turns out my worries are unfounded.
I should give him more credit than I do. But if I did that, I'd have to let my guard down. I'm not ready for that. Not with anyone.
This is weighing on me lately. I don't want anything, with anyone. But I want something . I don't know what that is.
Who knew when boys said they're not interested that they could change their mind overnight. Daaaaamn! I thought just women did that. Newly dubbed 'car guy' not only went out of his way to find my work email address, but he's already asking when we can catch up again. (I have to say here, he has a friend who works for my company, so it was pretty easy to figure out my email....even if I did find it a little...uncomfortable.) Aaaanyway, working on sorting that out as we speak...um, type.
The anti-me threw me for a loop last night. Said he gets excited when he sees me and would see me more if we lived closer. Apparently, I spoil him. I'm not sure what that means. Whatever it does, it's nice to have someone say they look forward to seeing you so much.
He also asked if I had a single friend. Didn't know where that line of questioning was going, for a moment! He said it was so I could go out with him and his brother and not feel like the third wheel. Ok, so the only time I've socialised with both of them is the first night I met them. I haven't even seen his brother since then. They usually go out alone. Him suggesting we go out as a group has made me confused. Yet again. Just when I think I have got things straight in my head, he says something else that makes me go, "Huh?" and start processing all over again.
There are things that I can't explain. Whether we're just watching a movie, or out doing grocery shopping (somehow, that's become a weird, fun activity - go figure), we have lots of fun. I don't think anyone else has made me laugh so much, so often, recently. He doesn't take life seriously. I take it too seriously. I'm learning to chill out. For that, I'm grateful.
This past weekend has proven to me what I already knew. I want to be able to do my own thing. I don't want restrictions. I don't want complications. I don't want expectations. I don't trust enough.
Having said that, if I had ever considered the anti-me as relationship potential, I would trust him. He's politically incorrect. He does lots of things I don't agree with. But he's honest. And ya don't find that in too many people these days. There've been times I've questioned things he's said. Somehow it always turns out my worries are unfounded.
I should give him more credit than I do. But if I did that, I'd have to let my guard down. I'm not ready for that. Not with anyone.
This is weighing on me lately. I don't want anything, with anyone. But I want something . I don't know what that is.
posted by E in Oz at 8:58 pm
these thoughts escaped my brain at 8:58 pm
7 Comments:
Oooh look - a butterfly!
Um, actually just letting you know I still read, just not commenting because of the topics recently :)
The plot thickens.
Actually, you know, a lot of folks ask me wtf I was thinking when I dated pseudo Aussie ex with his BFM and other "problems." Well, he was practical and honest and after years of all the junk with infamous ex, it was as close as I could manage to get to someone else.
Haha, and then I found the Antarctic ex, so maybe there's no inspirational ending just yet.
Well, I gotta skedaddle, but just wanted to peek my head in and say hi...
Oh look--a chicken!!
:-)
Soooo.....am I doing something wrong?
:-/
I know women are complicated and confusing at times, but seriously, from everything that I've read and had happen to me recently -- men are just as complicated and confusing, if not more so then we'll ever be.
I don't get it....
Taking time is a good thing.If something is to happen it will Enjoy todays sunshine E!
Ya, I agree with consise10 up there. Just go step by step - you don't have to everything always figured out. Flow with it and see what happens. If nothing else, it sounds like you've got the makings of quite a good best mate! (jeez what I wouldn't do for one of those sometimes)
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