Interesting timing
I don't often have time to log into Y@h0o lately. I can't log in from work anymore and I seem to not have time when I'm home.
I was surprised, when I logged in by chance tonight, to see James on line. Yes, the James from NV. For those who don't know James, we had a long distance thing going for over a year, till I went to see him in NV and he didn't show. I honestly knew he wasn't going to turn up before I left, but I went anyway....and had a ball (and got to be in the lovely Sara's wedding while I was there).
Those who know me know the rest. I was/am disappointed about a bunch of things, but I think we were always destined to just be friends.
I haven't talked to James in ages, so I sent him a hello message. An hour and a half later, and we're still talking. He's one of the few people I can do this with - go for so long without a word, then pick up down the track and it doesn't feel strange or uncomfortable. Just nice. Yeah, despite all the crap I went through.
He has this way of putting me at ease. When he said, "you worry too much", I actually smiled. Somehow, in a weird way, just talking to him helps me not to worry. I don't know how or why. I can't explain it. I just feel better.
The timing of our chat couldn't have been better. I needed the positive boost tonight. It's my second last night in this house....and it's all feeling very surreal.
In this moment though, I'm feeling happy and that's a feeling that I've not felt often enough lately.
I was surprised, when I logged in by chance tonight, to see James on line. Yes, the James from NV. For those who don't know James, we had a long distance thing going for over a year, till I went to see him in NV and he didn't show. I honestly knew he wasn't going to turn up before I left, but I went anyway....and had a ball (and got to be in the lovely Sara's wedding while I was there).
Those who know me know the rest. I was/am disappointed about a bunch of things, but I think we were always destined to just be friends.
I haven't talked to James in ages, so I sent him a hello message. An hour and a half later, and we're still talking. He's one of the few people I can do this with - go for so long without a word, then pick up down the track and it doesn't feel strange or uncomfortable. Just nice. Yeah, despite all the crap I went through.
He has this way of putting me at ease. When he said, "you worry too much", I actually smiled. Somehow, in a weird way, just talking to him helps me not to worry. I don't know how or why. I can't explain it. I just feel better.
The timing of our chat couldn't have been better. I needed the positive boost tonight. It's my second last night in this house....and it's all feeling very surreal.
In this moment though, I'm feeling happy and that's a feeling that I've not felt often enough lately.
posted by E in Oz at 6:56 pm
these thoughts escaped my brain at 6:56 pm
1 Comments:
I know that surreal feeling of moving into a new place - it sorta feels like nowhere is home. Scary a little. Glad you reconnected with someone who could offer some comfort - something familiar at a time like this.
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